Sacrifice

ODE TO MY GHOST

"sacrifice"

laid on the ground

looking the sky

the rain washing my tears

i saw my dreams dashed

i watched my life

throughing me out

fallen apart

the shadow of worthlessness

fathom me

and here it led me

here it left me

the sacriface

of struggeling against my destiney

of running after the shadow of light

the touch of mirage

the existance of the nothingness

it has no meaning

yet, it meant to me!

faint!!!!

laid on the ground

can't wake up

can't stand up

i can't go

'cause i don't know

how it looks outside

how can the world turn around

and that i know my sun's gone forever

that inside,

the day will never be raised

that inside,

there's an endless night!!!

Dye me

ODE TO MY GHOST

" Dye me "

Crawling, that’s how i learned how to stand up a day

So, dying, that’s how I’ll learn how to live a life

But haven’t to breathe again

I fell so many times, to wake up in my bed

Frightened to face the day

The sun burnt me, clouds used to protect me

From the temptation to attend the sky

And many years passed

Things lost

Others have come back around

And my life, and my home

And my own person

Still standing

Still waiting

For nothing

But maybe for the end

And the one inside of me

Remains just in my memory

Keep, the silence telling you about me

Something I’m hiding

But so clear to guess

I’m someone lost in a world

Which has never knew how to contain me

Far away from mines

So nearer to you

But you’re keeping me far of myself

And I am here and everything is talking

I am here and everything is moving

Everything will go away

And I will stand here

Waiting for my day

The hidden part of me

ODE TO MY GHOST

“The hidden part of me”

When the day turns down to night

When the smile breaks down to cry

When none is here to make you feel good

When all you want is hide your tears

You can tell me whatever

Is in your head

You can trust me

I’m your faithful friend

I’m the one inside of you

You’re the one inside of me

I’m you and you are me

The hidden part of me

I’ll be here lestening to your secrets

That you hide deep inside

I’ll be here giving you strengh enough

To help you withstand your fears

And hold your tears back

I’m your heart

I’m your soul

I’m your mind

I’m the hidden part of you

The hidden part of me

When you’re seak of being an actor

In the theature of life

When the earth seems smaller

When you’re misunderstood

When the loneliness gets hard to within

I’ll be here for you

I’ll be here for you

I’m the one in the deepest inside of you

You’re the one you’d never lied to me too

I’m your faithful friend

I’m the hidden part of me

Never shown to you

Break away

ODE TO MY GHOST

"Break away"

Do you know how to walk through the wall

Do you know the sens of losing all

Did you ever been pushed to leave the way

To change ever, ever your life and walk again

To pretend being someone else

It's just to keep yourself alive

It's just like that i'm still alive

I'm changing everyday my way

I'm taking every day another way

I'm losing every day the thing i got the day before today

And today i'm someone who will be died for tomorrow

Just like that i'm still alive!!

Confused

ODE TO MY GHOST

"Confused"

I don't know,
were to begin with and where is the end,
where I was walking to
and now is this the end?!!!!!

Maybe I've tried so hard
and maybe not
I was believing in
but I passed through everything I was waiting for

Now I'm remembering just to keep it alive in me
but "in the end it doesn't even matter"
how it was and what it meant to me

even to you

I left for so long
but you're still deep inside,
I'm trying other things
but I'm always looking back

to you

I got you just by my side
but I didn't know how to react
always shaking
pretending haven't enough time
while the clock was ticking life away

and I'm just standing right here
waiting for nothin',
watching my life playin'
and hidin' all inside

did you notice that I've gone away?!!
did you forget me or never thought about?!!!

feelin' I've never meant to you!!
so did I?!!

breakin' all
fallin' apart

Keep it inside
hide it tight
never let it show!!!

Take, take this smile and give 'em this appearance

Just keep it infront of 'em
like a picture
a mask with you play
this role you've been given
then walk, walk away!!!!!!

My silent hell

ODE TO MY GHOST

"My silent hell"

Would you speak a day
my silence
Tell 'em about my...
But who will care
livin' in a world of blind!

It's not about me
not my way to be
not my thoughts
all up to my cryin' silence
through those closed doors behind

Who will guide me out
this world of blind
where everything is blurred
all is deeply hide inside

What means light
in a world of blind?
No disparity between
black and white
blue and red
life and death

all up to te same

Won't you disappear
my silence
claim a voice
tell me somethin'

Don't let me here
drownin' in my vanity

'cause maybe I'm
the blindest
the voiceless
and nothin' to heal!!

So,

Am I the queen
of my small own kingdom
of blind!!!!!!!!